THYE;D

Don't feel like you're around.

2010-06-14T00:11:00.001+08:00

Well, this few days I feel lost. Like I'm out of place? I don't know what's going on inside of me. Its like I've lost touch of my inner self. Plus all we say to each other now is just "what you doing?". Maybe I'm just thinking too much? But I feel freaking lost without you. I need to see you. ): I feel like I'm bothering, I feel like I'm intruding, distracting, just like I annoy you. ): Sorry if that's how I am. But I know I can't live without you. ): Sorry. I think I'm just thinking too much.

Don't feel like you're around.

2010-06-14T00:10:00.001+08:00

Just you in my tiny heart.

2010-05-30T18:39:00.003+08:00

Hey world,

Tomorrow is the start of term test week. Well, I haven't finished writing my notes for my first paper. So I guess I'm not prepared at all. I just hope my GPA doesn't go down. If it does, I'll learn from my lesson and start studying. ): I really hate to study. Think I need to upgrade my brain's RAM so that I can memorize more things. Anyway, I feel emo. HAHA! Don't know why.

I'm into this song: Everybody in Love by JLS. Somehow this chorus captured me. Don't know in what way, but it just did.

Every minutes like an hour
Every hours like a day
Every day lasts forever
But what else am i gonna do
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep
what else could it be missing you so deep
long as I’m where you’re going to
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up for you

Don't know why, but there's just no mood in me to study. I lost my perfect student study drive again. All I want is just to study hard, but I can't. Sigh. Should I just give up? There's no motivation for me to study, no goal that I want to achieve. Nobody for me to study for, I find someone I study for. But somehow, I can't find that someone. Even HER.. Why can't I study? ROAR!

What's wrong with me?

2010-05-20T00:03:00.003+08:00

I don't understand what's going with me. I feel frustrated easily, I scold vulgarities in like every sentence. ): Even to you... I'm sorry I'm rude, but I just can't seem to control my emotions. Sigh, these few days I don't feel secured at all. Like sometimes how you talk to me, just makes me afraid even more. I lose my temper easily. I just want to spend more time with you, talk to you more. But its like you don't have time to talk to me. Sigh, I just want you forever. Its not too much right? I need to control. ):

I wish I could serenade to you in a high-class restaurant in front of everyone. O:

2010-05-11T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hello world. (:

I guess school is fine now. Though there's more responsibilities as each day passes, more roles to take on. But I can manage, I guess. Quizzes are coming up, projects are piling up. Hope my perfect student drive stays with me all the way! I want to be a really good student. But I don't want to seem like some anti-social person just mugging like crazy. I just want to do well, with a good GPA, get into a good restaurant to work. Just as simple as that. :D

Food for thought today: Is it good to take the initiative? Or is that a bad thing? Will people think that I want to gain attention? Will people think that I'm stuck-up cause I always want to be leader? Actually, I don't want to take up these responsibilities. There's just an instinct in my that makes me take the initiative to do things for people. The initiative to want to lead. The initiative to work the team. But what if people think this instinct of mine as a threat, or that I'm seeking attention? Or that I want to have power? I'm starting to worry. ): I have 3 leadership roles now. Class rep, and project leaders for 2 project. What are people thinking? Do they think my initiative of good or bad? I wonder...

Anyway, FYI, no matter what you think of me. I will continue to be that way. Because I live MY life as I want to. And not how you want me to live.

Love?

2010-05-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

Nothing much has been going on lately. Just a little stressed up about school. There's so many things to do. Can I just not do any? Sigh. Got 3 quizzes on Monday. Next week total 4. Zzz. Why so rush? Everything in one week. Even the toughest will crumble. Sigh, I guess I'm just not in the mood. Not in the mood for anything actually. Stop here and go on to some food for the soul.

Love sweeps you off your feet when you see that one person you love.

And yet, love squeezes and crumbles your heart when you're missing that one.

Love is contradicting.

But, love is definitely blind.

Because of love, I'll do anything.

Even though I might end up hurting.

Because of you, I finally understood love.

Yet, because of you, I'm doubting my understanding of love.

Somehow, love just grabs everything away from me.

And love is made up of ALL my emotions.

I guess thats what love really is.

An emotion.

To me, love is you.

You make my meaning of love.

You showed me how to love with my life and my soul.

Love can be a hassle to some.

But to me, love is bliss.

Bliss because I have you to love.

Bliss because you love me.

Love is a powerful emotion.

Your love is what's making my heart beat.

I love you.

Today, tomorrow and forever.

Everything is great in life. I just have one problem..

2010-04-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

Hello World. (:

Been awhile since I blogged. Everyday come back home no time already. There's school at 9 tomorrow. I'm not dreading school, but not excited either. I just can't wait for Wed and Thurs cause I have CCA trails. :D I'm a good student compared to when I was in Sec School. I did all my homework and tutorial ws. And I even started on the 2nd part of topic 1 for Math. When did I become a good student? TSK. Guess its good? I hope to get a really good GPA when I graduate. Anyway, so far for the first week, School is bearable. Like my title says, everything in my life is great. I just have one problem. Sigh, its quite confidential. So there's nothing much to say here. I shall go do something else. Do what? I have no idea. OHHHHHHH~ Dinner on Sat with Rachel, Amelia and Yong Min was awesome! Miss hanging out with them! :D

FIRST DAY OF WEEK 0 ORIENTATION

2010-04-12T21:32:00.002+08:00

Well, I must say, after today, I'm seriously relieved! :D Because I met my classmates. And they are a bunch of really awesome and FUN people. Not like what I imagined them to be (NERDY SCIENCY NERDS). :P Anyway, today was fun. Besides the fact I got humiliated! :O I wore white shorts not knowing there'll be wet games! Then my pants got wet and my boxers were seen through my pants! HAMBURGERS! :O THE OLs said they were cute. BUT I WAS DAMN EMBARRASSED! But, I think it was funny. Anyway, tomorrow staying overnight at school. AND, I have uniform fitting at 10.45am. So early! :O TIRED SHITZXZXZXZ! HAHA!

I LOVE TEMASEK POLY! :D

Bye Bye ):

2010-04-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

Bye bye David Sapphire Lato Racheel. I guess we'll never be able to meet at all. All those fantasies that I fantasized of you and I will never happen. I'm so so so sad right now. Bye David, I'm sorry I wasn't able to meet you for the first time. I'm sorry I can't be with you forever like I promised. This post is dedicated to David Sapphire Lato Racheel. I'm really sorry.... ):

FOW is over, how upsetting. ):

2010-04-08T19:23:00.003+08:00

Well, I stopped work. Went for FRESHMEN ORIENTATION WORKSHOP (FOW) from the 5th to 7th. Totally unexpected but it was REALLY AWESOME! :O I totally enjoyed it TTMM! Hehe. Tomorrow is FOC's Jam and Hop. I'm totally going! Cause I'm sure it is going to be FREAKING FUN! :D I can't wait for tomorrow. My group, FOLKEN, is the most enthu group ever. I had so so so so so much fun with them. Made so many new friends and met up with long lost friends. How cool is that? :D The GLs are just the MOST AWESOME PEOPLE! :D They were the ones who made camp awesome for me. I LOVE THE GLs!

Anyway, next week, is week 0 orientation. Then there'll be outings for FOLKEN some day. Not sure when though. :D I can't wait for school to start. Although all the friends I made are from different schools, I'm sure we'll still keep in touch. :D

I WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU :O

2010-03-24T23:55:00.003+08:00

Work work work work work work work.. Thats all I do all the time now. I should sleep soooooooooooooon, like after this. Got work tomorrow. I have a new resolution! I want to get pacs. (Y) I'm like doing crunches every night. So I really hope I will get pacs soon. And I've thought of 2 CCAs to join in TP. Either badminton or sport climbing (?). No idea what is the 2nd one about. But it seems fun? If its something like rock climbing then I WANNA JOIN! :D Hehe. I have camps coming up soooooooooooooooon! Already got the details for my Science School Orientation. Got a one night stay over. Seems quite cool. There's inter-class bonding too. I hope to make new friends. MAYBE meet new girls? :P Just joking. I'm super faithful. To whom, I have no idea. But I don't trust new people. NAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I'm not interested in anymore relationships. Just concentrate on becoming a TOP PASTRY CHEF. :D

I LOVE MY JOB, TTM.

You're away, and I feel empty.

2010-03-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

Well, work is great! :D Its getting more fun everyday. Getting used to it so I'm not complaining as much as before. Today ended work early thats why got time to blog even. Haha. :D Anyway, I better go bathe and get into bed soon. Wait tomorrow can't wake up. Can't believe 31st March I'll be going to cook at some event. Woo! So fun. HAHA! Today I learnt how to make Ice-cream. Next time I will make Ice-cream for myself. Don't need to buy already. I realized that I rather become a pastry chef. To me, its more carefree and fun. :D But I will still open a restaurant. Maybe like those sell tea and cakes kind? Haha. See how ba. :O I just thought of something. Shan't say here. :D Going to bathe. BYE!

New month, new work.

2010-03-01T00:11:00.003+08:00

Well, work officially starts tomorrow! I can't wait and yet I'm kinda dreading it. :O I hope it isn't stressful. But I will be able to handle it. I have a new hair colour for the new month. :D Now its brown. Nicer than before. But not very noticeable without light. HAHA! But I like this colour. Dyed it yesterday. Talking to Rachel on msn now. I'm tired. Shall go to bed soon. Work is at 9am. So early. :O

This month will decide everything. I'm afraid to embrace the results.

2010-02-26T00:28:00.001+08:00

Well, went for my TP medical check-up already yesterday. Later I'll be going for the x-ray. Hope I can wake up early. Cause I'm planning to go back to NV to visit my juniors. Nothing better to do. :P Anyway, the check-up was fine. Quite hilarious I must say (Urine test). HAHA! The nurse asked the doctor if he wanted to see it. Shan't say here. Too embarrassing. :D Anyway, I'm left with today, Saturday and Sunday to enjoy my relaxed life. Then its WORK WORK WORK and MORE WORK. Until the 3rd of April where I quit to go for camps and get ready for school. I really can't wait! Anyway, this month, I'll be away from friends and her. I hope I can last for this month without feeling sad. :D

Poly kills me even before it starts.

2010-02-24T20:13:00.004+08:00

Okay, I received my TP package yesterday. I was happy until I opened it. ): There's so many things to do la! Got what sign up forms, body check-up (WTF?!), things to photocopy. Zzzzzz. Want to cry... Plus I got to finish all these before I start work. Will be working everyday. :O now I'm thinking twice about work. ARGH! Stress.... I hope work is not stress.. Hope I'll enjoy there. :D

Replay - IYAZ

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep gone
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay (repeat x2)

Remember the first time we met
You was at the mall with your friends
I was scared to approach ya
But then you came closer
Hopin' you would give me a chance

Who would have ever knew
That we would ever be more than friends
We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
She like a song played again and again

That girl, like somethin off a poster
That girl, is a dime they say
That girl, is a gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay (repeat x2)

See you been all around the globe
Not once did you leave my mind
We talk on the phone, from night til the morn
Girl you really change my life
Doin things I never do
I'm in the kitchen cookin things she likes

We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
Someday I wanna make you my wife
That girl, like somethin off a poster
That girl, is a dime they say
That girl, is the gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay I love a gay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay

I can be your melody
A girl that could write you a symphony
The one that could fill your fantasies
So come baby girl let's sing with me
Ay, I can be your melody
A girl that could write you a symphony
The one that could fill your fantasies
So come baby girl let's sing with me

Ay, na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Shawty got me singin
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Now she got me singin

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay (repeat x2)

17 Years in this world. I survived. :D

2010-02-22T01:39:00.005+08:00

Thanks girls for accompanying me today on my 17th birthday! 2nd time already ah! :D haha. Thanks for the surprise Earthquake sundae. And thanks to those people who wished me on FB and Text messages. OF COURSE, ANOTHER SPECIAL THANKS TO ZIDING, LYNETTE AND MEIYI WHO SPAMMED ME WITH 70++ (?) TEXTS OF WISHING ME AND ALL THOSE CRAP STUFF. Though I complained about that, I was really touched and it really made my day. Cousin's 21st birthday party was great too! BBQ at my aunt's condo. Oh! And everybody enjoyed the frozen yogurt that I bought for everyone. (Y) :D Well, everything I ever wanted on my birthday has come true. Except for one! But thats fine, I understand. :D Actually I was afraid that I'd not enjoy my birthday today. But out with the girls? Who wouldn't enjoy that? REMEMBER TO GO OUT SOON K? ESP WHEN I GET MY DSLR. :D Must take LOADS and LOADS of photos! :D Thank you once again for all that I received on this special day. And thanks Bro for your $$. :D I love you all! :D

OMG, I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT TO MENTION THIS... I MIGHT BE GETTING A TRAINING JOB AS A KITCHEN HELPER AT A FRENCH RESTAURANT FROM NOW TILL SCHOOL STARTS. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~ I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. WHAT AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY PRESENT. :D

Bastch, thanks for everything.

2010-02-20T14:59:00.002+08:00

This post is dedicated to Rachel.S. :D

I would really like to thank her for planning the surprise for me and even going through all the trouble to order the cake. I really never expected this from her. :D Thats why I'd like to show my appreciation through this post. :D And I'd also like to thank her for all those times where she was there for me when I needed someone to talk to. She's really someone I can count on no matter what and I'm really glad she's my friend. :D Once again, thanks for organizing and planning that surprise for me. I'll never forget it. :D

Thank you girls. :D

2010-02-20T00:31:00.004+08:00

From Amelia and Yong Min

From Eugenia, Y.Hui Shan, Jin Yu and Shi Huan

From Amelia and Yong Min

Today had Hotpot at Jo's house. Was great! :D thanks for the surprise that you girls gave me. :D And the presents too. :D Did nothing else today though. HAHA! :D

After thinking it through for a long time, I've finally given up on a love that won't happen.

2010-02-11T12:02:00.003+08:00

ANYWAY! I just got back from Sister's birthday Chalet. Bathed and I'm feeling too refreshed to sleep. But I'm very tired though. Slept pretty late last night. HAHA! Talked till we all too tired. Anyway, it was very fun. :D Midnight feast was pretty sinful, but I'm glad I enjoyed. Stay-overs are fun. Wish I could attend more of those. My mum doesn't allow it. How sad. :( I feel like going shopping. But do I have anything I want to buy? Already bought 3 new shirts. All for the upcoming Chinese New Year. Though I'm not really in need of anything. Maybe I'll just get new boxers. :D Haha.

No matter how well I'm able to act around others, I can never fool you.

2010-02-09T18:16:00.002+08:00

Went to visit my piano teacher whom I've not seen for 2 years? Was so nice to see her and catch up with her. :D Came home and slacked awhile. Then changed and packed my bag and left for Downtown East. Walked there slowly. Reached there and the sky was quite dark. So I prayed for a better weather. Swam 10 Laps and the sun came out. So I started tanning. :D Then bought drinks from cheers and durian pancakes from Emicakes. Walked to White Sands and bought flour for the cake tomorrow. Went to buy my favourite Four Leaves Donuts too. Wa, I feel so SINFUL now. :( Just swim 10 laps and I'm eating so unhealthily. HAHA! :D Tonight I better sleep early. Cause I need to wake up early to bake tomorrow. Shit, I'm into the song SUPER GIRL by SUPER JUNIOR M. I cannot stop listening to it. :D And now I'm very into Korean songs too. Bands like SHINEE, SUJU. Must be Rachel's influence. Haha! :D I suddenly want to go to school. I want to START SCHOOL NOW! Cause I really don't know what to do at home. I go out, my mum say I go out too much. I stay home, need help out with house work. I lazy. Anyway, I splurged today. :P Bought 2 shirts from Cotton On at $60. Haha. I must stop shopping already. Though all these clothes will definitely come in handy during my poly years. :D Life is definitely much better after changing my point of view. :D Okay, shall end here. :D

CNY is coming! :D

2010-02-08T00:36:00.004+08:00

Woo! I've got a full week ahead! How awesome is that? :D Better keep myself occupied. Don't want to keep thinking again. Will ruin my joy for the Lunar New Year! I so cannot wait for Sister's Birthday Chalet! :D Going to wake up early on that day! Cause I got to bake a cake! Will meet them at 3 to put stuff at the chalet. So what time shall I wake up? I need an hour for the cake, about 3 for icing? Shall go buy the stuff tomorrow since I'm free and will be around Sk area. Now, I'm currently itching all over for no apparent reason. Zzz. Maybe its something I ate. :( Itchy everywhere! ARGH! Tuesday I'll be visiting my piano teacher whom I've not seen for a very long time! Woo. Awesome. :D Will be staying over at the chalet. Surprisingly my mummy allowed it. How awesome is that?! :D Friday badminton with sister. I NEED the exercise. :D Getting FAT! :O Shall start swimming regularly and get good stamina. :D Need to get a HOT BODY. Hehe. :D I'm dye-ing my hair tomorrow! Woo! Don't even know what the colour actually is. I think it is like Greyish-Brownish like. Hope it comes out okay. I shall go help my friend find out about his poly course now. BYE!

Glad to be back

2010-02-03T04:06:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm back from Korea, Seoul. :D It feels so good to be back in my hometown. Actually, most importantly, it feels good because I'll be able to see her. Wow, it has been 14 days? I'm missing her like hell now. So yeah. I can't wait for 13 more hours because I'll be able to see her already. Got a surprise for her. :D I bought SUJU Super Show2 Cd for her from Korea. She said she wanted to buy it. So i bought it for her. Hope she likes it. :D Photos will be uploaded onto FB soon people! When I am free. Which is TOMORROW! Okay? I shall go to bed. Going to cut hair before meeting sister and the girls.

17 already, old ah?

2010-01-22T00:00:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday my dear friend, Annabelle.

Have an awesome birthday and God bless you!

I'm currently in Korea, Seoul. Therefore I can't attend your birthday celebration. Sorry about that. But I would like to wish you a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May all your wishes come true and that this birthday luck will guide you through the year of 2010. Study hard and don't worry about playing hard cause you'll have a lot of time to do that after your Os. Okay? I just want to tell you that you've been a great friend and sister. Days in church camp with you are great! Its always fun with you around and you MUST join me this year okay? :D We'll go to church together for Holy Communion when I come back. :D Remember me always!

-Erika

Flying away

2010-01-20T01:21:00.003+08:00

Hi all! This will be the last post for now till February. Will be flying off to Korea later at 11pm. :D Guess all I can say is that I'm gonna miss HER a lot. :( See you guys soon.

Trying my best to be there for you 24/7

2010-01-15T00:08:00.002+08:00

Ah, O level results are out. I guess my results aren't that bad. Got 17 for my L1R4. Which is so much better compared to my prelims which was 34! Got half! Not bad huh. Anyway, I did put in effort but not my full strength, definitely. Anyway, Mr and Mrs Goh's housewarming is tomorrow. I might not be going at the last minute because Rachel's sick. :( She's been sick since Monday? Or Tuesday. High fever. Better stay home and take care of her. I wouldn't be able to enjoy if she's sick. Right? Hope she gets well soon. :D Guess I'm going back to watch my anime already.

Staying up all night long.

2010-01-10T05:29:00.005+08:00

Its so early. I got back from work around 3 plus 4? I'm staying awake so I'll be able to go to church tomorrow. There's 1.5 hours more to 7 where I will go bathe and get ready to go out. Then after church, I'll be heading down to Hyatt for work at 12. Hope I can finish at 6pm. I shall request to be signed out at 6 tomorrow. I need sleep! I'm surviving on POKKA MILK TEA! And POKKA GREEN TEA too. Now I'm talking to Jeth, a friend from Hyatt. He's going to sleep now. So I guess I have to keep myself awake from now on. Blogging and writing letters are not a good way to stay awake. It makes me more tired. Because I'm using my brain cells to think... Rachel is sleeping already. She's working at 9 tomorrow. Guess I won't be seeing her? ): Ah, the HOT topic everybody is talking about. Results day, 11th Jan 2010. What emotions do I feel of that day? I guess a little stress, a little fear? Not sure what else. But what's done is done. You can't change it because the results is already there. I just hope all my friends will do well. And my cousin, Rachel.W also. Haha! Anyway, to any O level result recipients out there, I have a few words for you guys. Although the results area important, your life is more important. No use crying over spilt milk and no use dying over cold tea. Pick yourself up and move on with your life. Because IT IS NOT OVER YET! You still can go out and achieve your dreams because if you decide that your life is over because of one bad O level result, then there is no hope in your life. You decide your own fate by controlling your destiny. So if you let go of that leash that holds your destiny, you're letting the world decide for you. Thats not the right way. You should make your own decisions in life instead of letting others decide for you! We all have grown up into young adults. We are a generation with a new mindset, a new thinking. So we shall set our own standard. Do what you want to do and not do what you're forced to do. Because when you do something you love, you will do it will all your heart. So with that, I'm ending this post. Its a really long one but I hope that this post might motivate or encourage some people. :D

2010

2010-01-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

Well, its a little late. But, Happy New Year people. Been working lately, not much time to go online. So yeah, finally got time to go online. Well, I must say that the start of 2010 has been great for me. 4 days have passed and I'm getting a highly strong feeling that 2010 will be a great year for me. Work's great, life's great. Everything is going smoothly. :D I guess I have some new year's resolution I would like to share? Haha.

THYE's New Year Resolution:

1. Promise to pick myself up and get on with life if my O level results are horrible.

2. Get into Shatec and work hard.

3. Change the jealous side of me. (If I can't change, I'll just shut up and not say anything. :D)

4. Be the best that I can for her.

5. Love her with my whole heart.

6. Achieve my resolutions. :D

Guess thats all. If I have anymore resolutions, I'll definitely add on to my current list. So, I'm off till Friday. Going out on Wednesday I think. *Yawns* Skype-ing with Rachel now. Shall go talk. BYE~ :D

2009-12-29T00:54:00.003+08:00

Hi World. :D Life's been really great lately. Can't ask for anything more. Stayed over at Rachel's house on 26 to 28. Came back at 11 plus just now. Anyway, shall elaborate a little on what we did.

26th Dec: Went over to her house in the morning to dump my big bag. Then went out to Hyatt for training and booking. Then went to have lunch after that at Ion. Went to Bugis to shop. Bought many things. HAPPY ME! :D Anyway, headed over to Parkway Parade to Collect some things from my aunt. Went to find Angie at her workplace. Then went home, dropped some stuff off and cabbed back to Rachel's house.

27th Dec: Didn't do much. Stayed home and tv-ed before going to buy groceries for cooking the next day. Then prata with Xin Kai and Yan seng. Oh yeah, watched 2 movies before sleeping. :D

28th Dec: Woke up super late. Cooked lunch and ate alot. Fell asleep on the sofa while watching tv and slept for few hours. Wow, I'm such a pig. ): Anyway, had Jap dinner with her family and watched tv before heading home. :D

Okay, thats all I did. Tomorrow I'm going movie with Rachel then dinner with Rachel, ChenNing, Jessie and Ms Lin. Woo! :D I'm not tired! Wow, my week is full already. Left with 1st nothing. But I think family should have something on. So I'm totally booked. WOW! :D

2009-12-24T22:25:00.003+08:00

Well, life has been so busy! Work, going out and shopping. Wow, no time to even sit down and blog a long post. My life has been great for the past few weeks.. :D That is until today. After thinking for more than half of my life, I finally found out today, that all my thoughts and assumptions are true. No wonder I always felt like the black sheep of the family, no wonder I've never been praised for doing well. Guess my life was planned this way by God. No way I can change it. Zzz. Got to live with it. FML.

2009-12-07T00:20:00.005+08:00

Trent, a really cute kid at JVBC. :D

Sunset taken from a rooftop.

Well, I haven't really been blogging lately. Been really busy. Had FL What's Up Camp from 27.11 to 30.11. Then I worked on 02.12. And helped out at Junior Vacation Bible Camp from 03.12 to 05.12. So, I'm super tired ! Worked yesterday also. Later I'm going out with B and friends. Watching New Moon. Wow, I can't wait! :D So excited to watch! Then there'll be Christmas dinners and parties! So many things to do, so little time! I still got to pack my room for my new bed! And I'm going to self paint my room! WOOHOO! Its going to be white. Think I am going to paint clouds on my ceiling too! Hmm, not really sure what I want to do yet though. Anyway, yesterday after work, went with B to Bugis. Shopped for my shorts. Ended up buying 3 boxers and 1 shorts. Wanted to wear it later. BUT... I can't fit into it! AHHHHH! ): So sad. Going to bring it back to change. But don't think tomorrow have time. So maybe tuesday before my badminton with Sister. I bought M ! How could I not fit into it? Think I grew fat! ): Shall change it to an L then. :D Hope I'll be able to wear it. :D Well, I hope its a long post! Haha. Miss B..

2009-12-01T00:05:00.004+08:00

Sunset, dark clouds. Feels like my heart now..

Okay, I just got back from B's house. I ended camp around 1 plus? I think. Haha. Then cab-ed home. Reached home, unpacked and bathed. Then went to B's house. Watched Tv then headed out to Amk Hub. Bought her subway dinner just as I promised her. :D Then went to J8. And finally headed back to her house. Watched more Tv. Then I left at 11 plus. Okay. So yeah. Not much mood to blog now. So I'll stop here.

2009-11-26T01:42:00.004+08:00

REST OF THE GRAD HIGH TEA PHOTOS @ FB :D

2009-11-14T01:13:00.002+08:00

Fun time Cam-Whoring with DD and Bastch! :D

2009-11-14T00:24:00.006+08:00

Our dinner receipt.

My dinner!

Rachel's dinner!

Yong Min's dinner!

Amelia's dinner!

Today went to Rachel's house. Waited for Amelia and Yong Min to come. Had lunch together. Then we started to dye hair! I helped Rachel dye while Amelia helped Yong Min dye. It was quite fun i guess! :D Haha. Yong Min's hair came out VERY DIFFERENT from the original as you can see in the first 2 photos. Rachel's hair colour is not as obvious. But I think I did a GOOD job. Because the colour came out quite even. Except the fringe part. Sorry Rachel ! Then we headed down to town! Walked around Wistma and Takashimaya. After that headed over to Far East Plaza for dinner at Kitchen Mogu Mogu! Some Japanese place. Food was good. WAIT! Before town, we went over to Rachel's parent's company to work. Haha! So random! We sat there for 1 hour dotting some screws? 1000 screws per person. Earned $10! Was quite fun I must say. :D Okay, back to just now. We ate then went over to Hyatt Hotel wanting to ask about the job. But the HQ was closed. So tomorrow then going to get interview for the job. :D YAY! Can work. :D So, I went around alone cause the girls were shopping for their clothes. I bought a Black Blazer and a pair of Black SHINY shoes on deposit. Going to pay up the balance and collect the stuff. That is after I go for my interview. :D Then it'll be shopping with the 2 Jons! I will look for a cheaper pair of Black jeans. Topman that one I will only buy if I can't find a cheaper pair of jeans. :D Okay then. I'll post the photos I took with Chenning DearDear and Rachel Bastch at Edmund's Chalet. :D BYE!

2009-11-12T00:01:00.002+08:00

Sunset I took picture of today :D

Today finally finished my O levels already! Hehe. I'm so happy, now its just time for play! I'm going to PLAY HARD and WORK HARD! :D Tomorrow going out! Today I so happy, dye-ed my hair already. :D Hehe! Don't know what to say already. SORRY! HAHA! BYE!

2009-11-11T15:00:00.002+08:00

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER!! :D :D :D :D :D :D D:D NOW I JUST ENDED MY PAPER! WOOO!!! ITS SO AWESOME! THE FEELING OF FINISHING THE O LEVELS! I ENJOY THIS! :D

2009-11-10T21:47:00.002+08:00

Wish I could watch this sunset with you baby.

Today is the 2nd last day of O levels. Tomorrow when I finish my paper, there will be a post which states the OFFICIAL end of the O levels. I'm so glad F&N paper was good for me. :D Went Amk hub with Rachel, Chenning and Joanna on Monday after the paper. Joanna left early cause of some family thing. So it was left with me, Rachel and Chenning. Had fun as usual with those 2 crazy peeps! :D Today was chinese paper. Sucks like hell. It was so damn BORING! :O HAHA! Went compass with ym and orle after that for lunch. Jon joined us halfway. Then went around doing things. And talked awhile. Then headed "home". Haha. Tomorrow is Science MCQ~ WOOOHOOO! Then head to dye hair after that! HAHA! :D YAY! Talking to Rachel on the phone now. BYE!

2009-10-28T21:46:00.004+08:00

Sunset At the Beach

Weird eraser!

FUNNY!

Woo!! Finally on the computer already! English and Mathematics paper are OVER! My burden is gone too! Now I just have to focus on Science, P.Lit and F&N can already! WOOHOO! So cool! Yeah. Okay. English paper was not too bad. I guess easier that what I expected? Mathematics was like SO SURPRISING! Its easy for BOTH papers! But I'm just worried about the Bell Curve.. Been studying like crazy.. I'm sick): How sad. Why always when got major exams then I will fall sick one ah?!

Okay, the 2nd and 3rd pic is a weird and funny eraser that made me laugh non-stop! Its a eraser that I wanted to give to Za. Then she tried to use it. The eraser dust just sticks to the eraser! Like in the photo. I just laugh and laugh! So funny lor!

Tomorrow going study. Need more sleep!!! Will sleep soon already! End here! BYE~

2009-10-20T02:23:00.004+08:00

Oh man, I can't sleep. Got SS consultation later too. At 10. Hope I can wake up. Its like 7.5 hours later and I'm not asleep. Tsk. Haven't yawned once. Must be cause slept at Za's house for so long. Okay, now is the study break. Last week was fine. Sunday had church anniversary. I didn't know service was at 5pm so me and belle went in the morning to find church closed. Then we went to Bedok interchange to have breakfast before heading over to Ion. Accompanied her till she started work then I headed home. Studied a little then got distracted by mummy cause she was talking to me. So in the end, I only did 2 constructions! Haha. Yesterday didn't study much either. Haha. Life is currently so BORING~ Lol. Science Practical is in 2 days time? Omg, nervous. Nvm, I believe God will guide me through the O level period as long as I pray. God will always stand by me no matter what cause He loves me! :D Later think I'll be studying with Za again. Hope this time will study longer. I hope I won't screw up my O levels. Really want to do well. Za's gonna work at Hsu's tuition place. I'm not joining them. It's good for Za cause it's kinda relevant to her future job. (: I have not enquired about my job yet. But most likely will work at some place that is relevant to my future job. Hope baby won't sad cause we don't have time for each other if we both work. But I'd rather she work and get experience than go out with me. At least she will have the chance to see how its like. :D Will miss her a lot if I don't see her but its worth it la. For her. :D

So many things going through my mind now. School, Studies, O levels, Love, God. I guess I really can't prioritize. The order should be God, Love, Studies, O levels, School. But now its Love, School, Studies, O levels, God. I can't believe I'm putting God as my last priority. I'm sorry Lord. Guess I've never been the perfect child of yours. Don't think I'll ever be with all the sins I've done. But, I really do love you Lord. I do.

Going to be brain dead soon.

2009-09-27T20:21:00.004+08:00

HELP! Omg, I am SO SO dead. O levels is in like 29 days and I have not even studied the WHOLE book for most of my subjects! WTF~ I'm seriously going to die in O levels. My brain went blank during Chemistry Mock. What if it happened during my O levels? Then what will I do? I think I might get so stressed up, I'll pull all my hair out! I really wish O levels will just disappear so I won't have to take it. I seriously don't want to study anymore? I can't even sit there for an hour just to do some revision or to read through a chapter. WHY!? All I want is the discipline to study and to focus for just 29 days! Can't i even do that?! 29 days and its the start of the O levels. After that I'll be free to do whatever I want. But i really can't study anymore. My brain will die, it'll get fried! I'm already losing my brain cells doing all those fucking mock exams. I want to run away from it, I just want to hide myself so I don't have to face O levels. I just can't do it alone.. I want to study but I can't. Somebody, please help?

Pictures, posts and panty hose (wanted something that rhyme).

2009-09-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

Decolourizing leaf, nice shade of green.

Orange!

Blue!

Bobby peeping into her new cage!

Bobby's new cage. Isn't it big?!

Bobby's toilet.

Okay, these are the photos from the last post. Bobby is as cute as ever, though she's super mischievous. Haha. School life has been horrifying! Only tuesday was the day without test. Since Wed, I have been having mock exams.. Wed was lit in the morning. Thurs was math in the afternoon. Today was chem in the afternoon. And tomorrow is math in the morning. ): So many things. Well, lets talk about today. Chemistry Mock Exam, I think I am going to FLUNK it. Zz. Its seriously DAMN tough. I think I study until brain block already. Too much Mock Exams and my brain can't take it. Only Sun there's no exam. Lucky. Next mon, there's geog. Wed, lit and eng. Thurs I'm not too sure. Fri is F&N and Bio. OMG! I wanna DIE! I'm really upset about my studying now. I'm not even studying at all la! Hope I can pass my O levels and graduate from Sec School. Really hope I can. Then it'll be life of working then to Shatec. :D

A day without you by my side..

2009-09-22T22:15:00.004+08:00

Today, there was no Za at school. How Sad): Then there was no assembly too! But I had no idea so I carried that heavy stack of stupid things up to the hall only to find out that Sec 4s assembly downstairs. Zz. Then to the LT for a talk by SRJC principle. Was quite okay but I slept for awhile. Then lessons as normal. Slept for the whole of chinese and half of recess. Then went down and ate a slice of honeydew and Balado. HAHA! Well, on Monday, I went with my mum to Simei to buy Bobby's cage. I'm trying to upload the photos so you people can see but the bloody blogger have problems uploading them. F***! Anyway, there was Biology Practical CRT after Chemistry CRT. The practical was fun 'cause we got to take lots of pictures of our results. I posted them all on FB so go there if you wanna see them. Hope blogger will be okay soon. So that you people can see the photos. :D

If they ask me, i would say it won't change a thing.

2009-09-06T00:46:00.001+08:00

Ello!
im posting for ka!
she's sleeping already!
aft finish reading her book which she borrowed a few hrs ago.
for mine, i'm not even half way through yet okay!
GRRR!
damn.
ROAR.
okay lol.
anyway, she didnt use comp at all.
lazy i guess.
so yeah, im bored.
im supposed t be sleeping but i suddenly dont seem tired already!
okay throat dry!
gotta drink water ltr.
boredboredbored me.
oh yeah,
anyway,
me, hsu, ka and belle studied tday.
well, many hilarious stuffs happened aft belle left.
i swear, i laugh till stomach damn pain lah!
hahahha.
then had subway for dinner.
mum's treat :D
then had t rush off t have dinner with dad and mum.
well not exactly, since i already had mine, i read my book while they ate.
hahah.
okay, im so gonna duplicate this post on my blog!
lol.
oh yeah, this is ka's blog.
so yeah,
thts all she did?
i guess?
haha.
she'll update you guys soon! :D

When life is turning its back on you, tap it on the shoulder and say "Don't be so rude will you?"

2009-09-03T21:38:00.005+08:00

Hello People! There are 3 pictures posted up today! The first one was taken a few days ago. Noticed the moon looked super bright and clear so I took a picture of it. (: The second picture is my O level preparation timetable. It's as big as a mahjong paper and it is on my wall next to my bed. Cool huh. I drew it just now. :D The last picture is my dinner. Looks so tempting huh? Its Japanese food. Home-made Japanese food. Anyway, school is horrible as usual. Crts every day till late afternoon. I want to cry already! My subjects are definitely horrible. And I don't know if I can cope already. Sian 1/2. LOL. Hai, hope I make it to my future. (: There's always hope if you only believe.

Though sometimes life can be such an asshole to you, you've always got to believe that you can do things if you wish to. There's always that light at the end of the tunnel, so walk towards it and always believe in yourself. As long as you believe, nothing is impossible. No matter how much life might suck, at the end of the day you still have to live your life. So good luck everybody! Grab your life by its leash and pull it along with you according to how you want it to go. Lead your life in the ways you want to and don't let it lead you! (:

There's light at the end of the tunnel, just got to keep walking.

2009-09-01T20:46:00.002+08:00

Well, I had my haircut today! Then went to eat and study. Super love my hair style now. :D Well, there's CRT in the morning tomorrow. So sian. Can't sleep longer tomorrow. Anyway, I'm feeling quite bored and hungry. Too lazy to get food or buy food. xP Hope I can watch tv later at 10. If my mother doesn't come back by then. Next week is Sept hols already. So fast. Anyway, I regret not going back to primary school yesterday. Don't know if I will still have a chance to see the teachers again next year. I must go back to both secondary and primary school next year! :D Shall go and bath now. BYE!

Life's tough, but you've just got to deal with it!

2009-08-31T21:38:00.001+08:00

Hello people~ HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! Haha. Had teachers' day celebration today. Also collected my CCA achievements award. Then had geog CRT which was kinda boring. Lol. Anyway, went over to Za's house for awhile then headed home. Now I'm bored and going to eat Passion Fruits. BYE! :D

Life's a mystery.

2009-08-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

Well, it's been so long since I blogged. Well, life's been all about studying now. Prelims was horrible. I didn't go for PTM. Don't know when then will get my results slip lor. Anyway, I guess I failed about 4 subjects out of 7. Horrible man. Not even one A la. Hai. Better buck up already. No more playing already, just studying and more studying. ): How sad can life get? Just keep studying. SO SIAN! Anyway, I'm happy about what I talked to my mum about. :D Hope I really can go and get experience. It would be good! Got church tomorrow. Guess I'll sleep early! Nights people!

Sandwiching cause there's nothing to do!

2009-08-16T15:32:00.002+08:00

Well, I couldn't wake up for church this morning. Slept super late last night. Anyway, woke up around 12 plus? Yeah, then slacked around for awhile. Walked over to white sands to get ingredients for my sandwich. Came home and made 2 Ham & Cheese sandwiches. And a huge cup of Pink Lemonade. :D What an awesome lunch! But i didn't take any pictures so can't tempt anybody! Haha. I wanna go back to Vivo. Get my super tempting sweets again. Kinda addicted to them. They make a good snack. Talking to my SISSY now. HAH! Tomorrow got school. So sian. Zzz. Wednesday Chinese results come out. Sian. Shall go watch a movie le. BYE!

Spent a happy time out with you today.

2009-08-13T20:20:00.002+08:00

Sour Cola

Sour Rainbow

Sweet Cherry

Today went over to Za's house for lunch. Then headed over to Vivo. Was late for the 2pm show. But we still catched it because Za dont want go home too late. Watched Up in 3D. Was SUPER NICE! :D Then we went to eat Subway. Then we went to this shop that sold super cute sweets. Will post up the pictures I took of them later. Now i watching tv. Got super LOL show that Za introduced. Sad she's missing it. She should have fetched her mum and eating dinner now already. Miss her.

Feels so good with you around.

2009-08-12T22:14:00.003+08:00

I can't seem to upload pictures. Will do it later(: Anyway, today went with Za to bring Bobby home from the vet. She's up and about! :D So happy. Gotta feed her medicine everyday for 10 days. She's so cute lor. Tomorrow going to watch movie with Za. Watch Up in 3D. I could get used having no school sia. Haha. Wonder when O level Chinese results will come out lor. So sian. Okay la. I go watch tv le. :D

Life's a war, we fight to live.

2009-08-11T19:10:00.004+08:00

Home now. New washing machine arrived and we can wash clothes now. Life's weird without Bobby around. She's fine from her op! THANK GOD! :D I'm so happy that I can see her tomorrow already. The picture for today is nice. On the left are the grey clouds, and on the right are the white clouds. Looks like their going for war or something. Haha. I miss Bobby. Hope she's doing fine at the vet. Can't wait to see her! :D

Please pray for her.

2009-08-10T21:12:00.012+08:00

Just look at her, she's so cute.

Today went to cut hair and study. Slacked most of the time. Then headed to CP for dinner and stuff. Finally got my guitar string and I can play the guitar properly already! Well, the pictures for today are of my rabbit. Her name is Bobby. She's the cutest little thing I've ever seen. Please pray for her safety and health. She's going to the vet tomorrow and maybe getting an operation. She needs your prayer. Please. Thank you.

Happy National Day!

2009-08-10T00:23:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! Haha. Had a very busy day today! Got woken up by my alarm. Was too tired from sports day on Sat so I slept in until 11 plus. Woke up, got ready to go out. Then went to Bukut Batok for my mother's colleague's brother's wedding. The food was AWESOME! :D Totally enjoyed myself. Then headed over to my aunty's house for a BBQ. Good food again! :D The picture of the day is Ember. She's my aunty's dog. So cute right? She totally posed for me to take picture lor. Damn cute. :D Tomorrow I'm going to my grandma's house to cut my hair. Just nice my aunty in Singapore. Then meet Za then go Belle's house study. (:

Life's unfair and nothing's perfect.

2009-08-07T21:08:00.003+08:00

No school today! Went to study with Za, Hsu and Belle. Actually was suppose to go Cp BK to study. But there's totally NO SPACE! So we went to Kovan, which had NO SPACE too. Met Belle at the Mrt station and we headed over to her house. I did Science TYS and then slept for awhile cause I too tired already. Left at about 6 plus. Tomorrow gonna have Sports day, I'll be playing captain's ball. I'm bored with nothing to do. Shall end here. (:

Time flies when you're having fun

2009-08-06T19:15:00.004+08:00

Okay, my blog is like so damn dead. Anyway, I just came back from my swim! I'm so out of shape, should go swimming regularly. :D The picture at the top of the post is something I took a while back. Everytime i post, i shall put a picture like that. :D Tomorrow is NDP celebration at school. I DON'T NEED GO! Haha. Will be studying for my last paper at Compass. Prelims are okay I guess. That's for those papers that I care about and I studied for. The rest, sure FLUNK one. Haha. Tuesday is my last paper which is Science MCQ. Really hope my Biology won't pull down my Chemistry marks. Chinese 'O' Level results is coming out next week. And I'm nervous. I really hope I didn't do badly. Hope I won't have to retake. :D English 'O' Level Oral is coming up. Hope I get a good teacher and hope I score well. Okay, time to go play my game already. (:

Cause I want it all

Or nothing at all

There's no where left to fall

When you reach the bottom its now or never

Is it all

Or are we just friends

Is this how it ends

With a simple telephone call

You leave me here

With nothing at all.

Study...

2009-07-11T16:24:00.003+08:00

Hello! ANNABELLE SUCKS.. Anyway, i'm at the library now. With Za, Hsu and bell! *DING DING DING* So long never post. LOL. Annabelle keep nagging, so irritating....

Annabelle says " SHUT THE **** UP lahs. "

Erika, snatches laptop back and says, "Go and DIE la!! "

HSU &MEL : THESE PPL HAVE NO LIFE MAN, THIS AINT MSN OKAY!

LOL. Nvm, continuing with my post. I'm bored. Did Chem TYS today. Thats all. :D

HELLO!

2009-06-23T18:40:00.004+08:00

BOO! At Za's house now. going home soon. had fun playing Monopoly travel pack today. :D watched Superbad too. LOL show. holidays gonna end soon, so sian. i love Za forever. :D hehe can't see Za for the next few days, so sad :( fri still got oral, maybe going out with cn and others for L4D. Za will be alone :( so she must come with me also! HEHE :D
KA SO CUTE :P

SO LONG NEVER update

2009-06-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

So long never update. Worried bout grandma. She's in the hospital. Worried bout grandpa too. he alone at home. Pray they get better. Talking to Za online now. Room so hot! Air con on i still sweating. IRRITATING! *YAWNS!* Sleep soon? Nah, catch a late night movie. :D Shall go find. BYE!

Mr Yon's BIG DAY!

2009-06-06T22:40:00.006+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!

I'm back from hiding in a cave.. Okay, that was lame. Anyway, lets talk about my week.

Monday, i had MT O levels. Omg, tried my best. Hope to at least get a B. Then went to have lunch. Crapped in KFC and then headed home. Bathed and changed before leaving for BUGIS. Met Za, Hs, Ym, Cn and Euge there. Wanted watch Monsters VS Aliens but they had no 3D. So in the end watched Night at the museum 2 at the new mall. Not bad. Headed home after that.

Tuesday, had special term. All SS mock exam, sian until can die. Then headed for Lit sem. BORING AGAIN! Went to suntec city. Walked alot and kinda got lost. Super LOL! Finally found suntec and we went to eat PEPPER LUNCH! Cant remember what we did afterwards.

Wednesday, special term and Lit sem again. Then headed to bugis again. Shopped, and went to far east too.

Thursday, special term, eng sem. Went bugis eat then go home to bake.

Friday, special term &lit sem. Then headed to town and shop with Za and Ym. Shop till can drop, seriously. They bought a black dress and a white cardi. Za bought a white clutch bag and Ym bought another white dress.

Today, Mr Yon's Wedding! Woke up at 8 plus. Started to get ready and everything. Walked to interchange slowly. Cn was late. Then cabbed down to the church. Came same time as Za. So went in together. Then saw the guys there and other NV ppl. Headed straight to the toilet. Cn started helping Ym to put make up. I put on my bow and pricked my finger while doing it. LOL. Then we quickly went up to the hall. Waited awhile before the bride came walking down the aisle. So pretty. Then the ceremony ended. We all stayed behind to take pictures with Mr &Mrs Yon. Photos are up on FB. Yeah. Then headed down to have something to eat. Took some pics with the others and then headed home with Za, Ym, Rachel &Cn. Cn went home. While the rest came to my house. Changed and slacked before leaving. Sadly, Rachel couldn't join us. So went to Downtown, Escape sucked. So we went to catch a movie. Hannah Montana that one. It was nice okay! HAHA! Then slacked around and had dinner. Ate at KFC. Then we laughed until like crazy. So fun. Enjoyed today. Was great. :D

Happy 15th month anni baby, I love you.

6 More Months!

2009-05-22T21:41:00.003+08:00

Well, today was road run. Woke up super early and had to run 2.2 km. How horrible was that? Anyway, got 36 position and a top 50 badge. 2nd time already. Not bad ba. HAHA! Then went to CP with Za. Waited there for the value lunch. Then went over to Za's house. Slacked there till 5 plus. Mummy called so i went home. Been watching tv since. Za's eating now. Gonna go back to tv. :D Love you baby.

PRACTICAL ):

2009-05-20T20:57:00.005+08:00

Well, today was F&N practical exam. Was so nervous i couldn't sleep last night~ Anyway, woke up usual time today. Met Za at flyover. Bus-ed to school together. Started collecting utensils and stuff.. Then started cooking.. Screwed up my time management, my pasta souffle and all my frying stuff. In all, i screwed up my whole practical.. DAMMIT! But, at least the result that came out was good. Glad i had help from miss low and Za, :D THANKS BABY! Hope my plates helped you! Went back to class and people came to eat my food. Guess all comments were good? Thanks people for making my day by enjoying my food. Was so upset about my practical but you people made me feel good. THANKS!

Was suppose to go tuition after school with belle. But Uncle sam could not make it. So we didn't go. Went to CP with Belle while Za went home to put her stuff before meeting us. Me and belle crapped in pizza and then we went to LRT there. Waited at the platform for Za. Train-ed to PS! Za was hungry so she went to eat. I slept cause i was super tired! Then went walking and looking at things. Then went to The Cathay. Then train-ed home. Belle dropped at Sengkang while i went to Punggol with Za. Waited for bus together then i took another bus home.

Now, i talking to Rachel.S. and eating my food from practical. Miss you Za baby. Takecare.

The time has come...

2009-05-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since i last blogged. No habit of blogging i guess. Just ate my dinner. Super late, gonna grow fat. ): Anyway, its gonna be time for chinese later. After i blog finish. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? TEO HUI YII ERIKA IS GONNA DO CHINESE?!?!? I guess the time has come to do something about it. Failing is not an option for me. I want to be able to stand tall with my head in the air proving to people that i can do it if i put my heart to it. I cannot take it anymore. I don't want people to look down on me because of my poor results. I don't wanna be the disappointment while the other one takes all the credit by sitting in front of the computer all day while i'm mugging my ASS OFF! Nobody sees me study, nobody believes i study. FUCK!

Well, i have nothing else to say here. Just tell bout my week ba. Friday was Strings BBQ. Everything was great except the fucking rain. Ruined my mood. Saturday went to have my ankle and thumb fixed. Then headed to meet my mum and go my aunty's for dinner. Phone died while at aunty's house. Sian, lost contact with the outside world. Today, woke up super late for church. Didn't get to have lesson. Did closing prayer only. Then stayed in church for card games. Headed over to VIVO after. Ate at WHITE DOG CAFE. Then went shopping for marcus's present. Bought him a purple jacket from top man. Looked at blazers for myself. Decided that i suited grey more, so i'm gonna look out for more grey blazers. :D Then slacked at the sky deck and headed home after.

Did up notes for ALKENES TEST tomorrow. Gonna study on the bus tomorrow morning. Gonna sleep early. Tired. Guess i'll end here. Shall make it a habit to post ba.

A lil advice..

2009-04-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

Well, i just heard this. So i'm gonna share it. :D

Do not judge a friend because of what other people say. But judge your friend because of their individual character. Everybody has different characters and personality. Think about what your friend has done for you over the many years you have been friends. And what have YOU done for them? Just because other people said something about your friend, does not mean you gotta believe them. Go with your own point of view, your own perspective. Follow what you think is right and not be afraid of what other people might think of you. That is what a true friend is. You judge fair. Think... Has your friend always been like this? Same character, same personality. If yes, then that is what your friend is. YOU as a friend should know. All i can say is this. The rest is up to how you choose to look at the matter. How you choose to believe.

NO SCHOOL!

2009-04-19T12:43:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY~

Suppose to have PTM today but my mum working as usual. So gotta postpone. Went to school for CCA. Damn little people. After CCA, went to Za's house. Then i went home at 6 plus. Then i guess thats all ba.

Saturday!

Woke up for tuition as usual. Early morning. SUPER SIAN! Slacked awhile then got ready for CCA AGAIN!! Went for CCA. Miss Low was really nice and treated all of us to Old Chang Kee. THANKS MISS LOW! Then CCA was boring. Hope we can do well for SYF. 10 more days only. JY! Rushed home then changed and stuff. Went over to Za's place. She cooked prata and sausage for me! So touched and happy. :D THANKS ZA! Charged phone awhile cause running out of batt. Then went over to CP to meet ZD, Avril, Rach, Kris, Lynette and Ayton. Made Meiyi's card. Slacked for a really long time. ZD, Avril, Rach and Ayton went off. The 4 of us went over to Kovan to pool. Met Aik How. Slacked till 11 plus. Then went home. Now I'm here. So tired. Eyes closing. Shall go sleep. Got church tomorrow.

Body Ache!

2009-04-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY!

Nothing much to talk about ba. Just had school, PE and health check. Tuition after. Bought MEE SUA to Uncle Sam's house. Ate then had tuition. Went home to bath and change. Za and Belle waited for me. Bus-ed down to tampines. I met mummy while they went to eat and explore TampinesOne. Bought my new ACOUSTIC GUITAR! :D But only can play after SYF. If not my fingers pain then cant play violin le. 12 More days to SYF. BUCK UP PEOPLE. Shall end here.

TIRED!

2009-04-19T12:31:00.000+08:00

Wednesday.

Had CCA in the morning. BORING... Then had lessons. EVEN MORE BORING! HAHA! Then after school had inter-house soccer match. So much fun sia. But integritas lost all the match. Who cares? We had so MUCH FUN! After the soccer match, played basketball for awhile in school. Then went with Jingzhi to hougang mall. She bought food for her mother. And we had JI PA! She liked it. Good i made her eat. :D Guess thats all. Couldn't sleep again. Hope this thing will end soon...

Good day? Bad day?

2009-04-19T12:19:00.000+08:00

Well, this post is about tuesday! Za and i went to hougang mall with huishan, yongmin and jinyu. i think thats all. Anyway, we ate and crapped there. Then got a call from Ziding. She sounded quite serious. Its something about Oneplus8 so i got kinda worried. Went over to compass to find them. Heard some really bad news. Then went home at about 5. Bathed and got ready to go Downtown East with Za to watch 17 Again. Za had 2 free tickets so we went together. Enjoyed spending time with Za alone. Then the movie ended at about 8 plus 9? Sent Za home cause it was late. Had to make sure she reached home safely. Then i bus-ed home. Guess thats all for tuesday? Good and bad day. What a contradiction. I had fun yet i couldn't sleep at night.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIYI!

2009-04-19T00:55:00.000+08:00

MEIYI !! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 16 LE HOR! DON'T CHILDISH! HAHA! TAKECARE! :D HOPE YOU HAD FUN TODAY!

19 MORE DAYS!!!

2009-04-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

OMG! its just 19 more days to SYF! WOW! thats really fast. I wonder whats with the changing of training timings man. now every saturday is like from 12.30 to 4. i really hope we will be able to get something. I DEMAND AT LEAST A SILVER OR GOLD. IF WE GET LOWER, I'M SERIOUSLY GONNA FLARE UP. life is boring these days. except the time i spend with za. the rest are seriously boring. Tomorrow is Good friday. Going for soccer with the girls. And some of the guys. :D

Lets talk about today...

Morning had bio, slack. Chem, slack. PE! had 2.4km run. PASSED! *PHEW!* Was running with Yong Min. Encouraged her to run. Not bad.. She passed too. During 2nd round, near the ISH there, i was running behind Yong Min then i tripped on her leg. I fell down sia. Scraped my knees and my hip. OMG la. It was damn pain. But i carried on running. Guess my timing could have been better cause i wasted time getting up and brushing myself clean and telling Yong Min to run first.. Za passed too! So happy for her! :D During recess, teached Za math. Then had Ss. We had to do presentation. Then other lessons were boring. Math test after school was difficult. Hope i wont fail that badly. After test went to CP with Za. I had BK while she had MEE SUA! Then walked around after eating. I bought a watch while Za bought 2. Then we went home. Took 83 with Za. My wallet dropped on the bus. Had to make Za come back to bus stop pass to me. Then bus-ed home our seperate ways. Came home slacked.

Played facebook for myself and Za. Then now got nothing to do so i blog. Sat, tuition in the morning. Then Cca at 11. Sibei sian. I should start practicing violin at home. Getting sucky already. I can cut my hair in 19 days. OMG! SO HAPPY! Haha. Shall end here. BYE!

My promise to you dear:

I will love you forever with my whole heart.

You mean the most to me,

You're the only one for me.

In my eyes i only see you.

You're the only reason why i'm breathing.

Your love is the reason my heart is beating.

I love you.

25 Days to my HAIRCUT!

2009-04-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRICIA AND AVRIL!

Had school as usual this morning. 2nd period was chem, had our project presentation. Everything was okay i guess. Only i screwed up my presentation. Hai, just not cut out to present stuff. Had PE after that. Ran 1.4km, did quite bad. Anyway, school was okay overall. Gotta do SS project now. Presenting next week. DAMN, so many things to do. So little time! Now i'm eating rock melon and posting. HAHA! Came home not long ago. Celebrated Avril's birthday with all Oneplus8 except Meiyi cause she had her motivational course. Had Aston's at Cathay Orchard. Then slacked and stuff, crapped too. Had fun. I dunno what else to type. 25 Days to my haircut and 25 days to SYF. Buck up people. :D

因为你而呼吸，

因为爱而心跳。

爱上你的一切，

是我的骄傲。

Angry enough to whack you.

2009-03-28T15:29:00.001+08:00

Well, i'm feeling angry now. I'm gonna slap someone on monday. I seriously cant wait man. :D

Achieving my goal is important..

2009-03-28T14:41:00.000+08:00

Well, today had tuition in the morning. Then went for CCA. Reached there, Mrs Tan ask me tune violin. Lol. Sian lor. Then i received a letter. How lame can it get? Started combine when Mr Chua came. Today was kinda okay ba. Violin 2 got scolded alot. HAHA! Rest of it is okay le ba. After CCA was outside wearing shoe. I tore the letter into HALF! Then i threw it into the dustbin! AWESOME! So hope the person who gave it to me will read this man. Anyway, I'm home now with my mum. Was suppose to go Za's house but i'm having a headache so didn't go. Za's asleep now. I'm kinda bored. Shall either do Soduku or Watch a movie. Love you Za. Shall end here.

你的爱是我的 Everything.

2009-03-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

Well, have not been posting. Been feeling super lazy to do it. Well, i've been having CCA since wed. So sian can? Mon went to Za's grandma house to do spring cleaning. Earned $30! xP Happy i earned money. Sad za sick, got flu. Poor thing. Now she's okay le! Wont worry liao:D Must takecare kay baby? Had CCa camp on fri and sat. Gonna go church later. Its 12 midnight and i don't feel tired, how surprising. Must be cause slept at Za's house for 2 hours? haha. Was really tired. Keep waking up in the morning de. Thurs went for F&N CRT, went shopping with Za and to eat lunch. Then went home to take violin and go for CCA, then went out with Oneplus8. Actually is only Meiyi, Kris and Lynette only. HAHA! Then on friday, met Za on number 3 and went to white sands. Had macs:D Waited for belle to come and her to eat finish before going for tuition. After tuition went to Pasir Ris park. Which was really random. HAHA! guess thats all? Tuesday went to fly kite with meiyi and desiree. Guess i'm done. Shall hit the toilet then head to bed. Gotta wake up like 6 - 7 hours later!

Singapore Flyer!

2009-03-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

My day started bad! Woke up in the morning and had tuition. Went for cca. Started getting angry and pissed off. It was cause of Mr Chua and my section. Mr Chua kept asking us to play louder and louder. WTF la. Play so loud sound also no good. Playing so loud i was so afraid that my strings would break la. Got damn pissed off lor. Why am i putting in so much when others are not even playing their best? I felt like throwing my violin down and say i quit. I seriously cant take it anymore. Sitting in that seat, its damn bloody stressful. Gotta play well, and every mistake i make will be said out in front of everyone. FUCK shit sia. I seriously just wanna give up and not play in the main esemble already. Violin 1, IF YOU READ THIS, PLEASE PLAY LOUD. I HATE IT WHEN YOUR PLAY SOFT CAUSE I HAVE TO HURT MY VIOLIN. SO PLEASE PLAY LOUDER. BEFORE I LOSE MY TEMPER AT YOUR!

Went home after CCA and rushed to get ready to go out. Met Za on the bus. Went to have Macs lunch cause i was really hungry. Then made our way to Marina / City Hall. Walked to esplanade there. Cause we were going to the Singapore Flyer. In the end it started raining so we cabbed there. Reached there but couldn't go on cause it was raining. So walked around and slacked. Za went to eat Popeyes cause she was hungry. Waited for the rain to stop. And when it finally stopped, we went to buy tickets and sat on the flyer. SO SO SO HAPPY TODAY. Finally i got to sit on the flyer. THANKS ZA!

Bad Sunday.

2009-03-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

Not only today that is bad. Lets talk about yesterday...

28th Feb '09

Woke up to go to school for Bio Mock exam. Was late. Suppose wake up at 5.30am and meet Za at Rp. But i didn't manage to wake up. So ended up meeting in school. Reached there, had no time to read through ANYTHING! So ended up not knowing a lot of things for Bio. Slacked after the paper. Then had Eng Paper 1. After the paper, went for CCA. Combined for The dance of the Iscariot. It was kinda okay. Now i'm feeling the stress of being the Concert Mistress. Omg la. I have to play well and stuff. DAMMIT! After that, went to Hougang mall and waited for Orle and Za to come. Did Chem project after that. I went off at about 4.15pm like that. Cause going to Mr Wee's house which is my Pri School principal. Went there, had dinner. My mum talked and stuff. I watched tv and msg-ed Za. Then my phone died. I was having a bad headache too. So i slept. Cause i was really tired too. So, we left at about 11pm? Got woken up from my sleep. My Mum's friend sent us home. It was raining, don't know if i caught a cold or what. Got home and changed cause my head was DAM PAIN! So i slept. Felt super cold whereas my body was HOT! Took my temp and it was 37.9. Guess it is counted as a slight fever. Wrapped myself in my blanket and got to sleep.

Thats about yesterday. Now about today. I got woken up by my alarm this morning. My head was still throbbing. And i got THROAT INFECTION! So i msg-ed Grace and Vanessa to tell them i'm not going to church cause of my bad headache. Slept back till 11am plus. Slacked at home. Practiced some violin and did my chores. This doesn't sound bad rite? Well, I'm currently having a headache again. My migrains don't usually come so often. I'm wondering what is wrong. I have a feeling these headaches are a bad sign. Now maybe i'm thinking too much. But if these headaches continue so frequently... I know what's the reason already. I was suppose to do a brain scan a few years ago when my headaches came so frequently. I was afraid to. So i didn't. I will do the scan if my headaches continue despite me taking my medicine. I don't understand why this is happening?!?! I really hope that my nightmare doesn't come true.

Sweet 16!

2009-02-22T01:02:00.000+08:00

Well, today is MY birthday! Received many msges! Thanks PEEPS! :D Had tuition in the morning): then rushed to school for CCA, combined whole esemble for the new song. It was nice. Better than Helter Skelter LOR! Received presents and got wishes too! Happy people remembered my birthday! :D Then i RUSHED home and got ready to go out with Oneplus8. was kinda late. Met Z.D at CP and we MRT-ed down to Hougang waiting for M.Y, Kris and Ayton to board the train. BUT... They missed it. Went down at Serangoon and met Lynette. Waited for M.Y, Kris and Ayton to come then catched their train. Met at Douby Ghuat interchange. Ate Ajisen. Dam full sia. Avril came halfway. After eating, we sat in Ajisen and CHATTED! HAHA! Then we went to Zone-X. Ayton went off first for another celebration. Then halfway through the arcade, Avril left also for another celebration i think. HAHA! Left me, Lynette, M.Y and Z.D. Played some more and then walked to town. Walked until TAKA! We went to eat crap stuffs. I had a MANGO MOCHI and a RASPBERRY WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHI! It was dam nice la! Then Lynette treat me to this Marcona (dunno wad thing) lol. Peach FLAVOURED! haha. :D after that went to MOS BURGER! had some drinks and stuff. Played with the DRIED ICE from our MOCHI! Then me, M.Y and Z.D went to the outdoor part to CAM WHORE! lol. Kris and Lynette went to the "TOILET"! haha. Then they took really long to come la. Come liao hor then they start doing weird things to me. First they gave me a MANGO PUDDING with ONE candle on top. I was already touched. THEN, they covered my eyes and made me say 16 wishes out. HAHA! then when i was done, they let go of my eyes and in front of me was a CAKE! with like 16 CANDLES!! And they sang the Birthday song to ME! I was damn TOUCHED la. OMG man. Lucky never cry.. :D Thanks girls for being so thoughtful. Then we took more pics after eating the WHOLE cake. We decided to go Kovan to play pool. So we walked back to Douby Ghuat interchange and MRT-ed to Kovan. Z.D went home): AWW! haha. After Pooling, we went to Hong Kong Cafe. Lynette went home first. At 11.30, me, M.Y and Kris went home. M.Y took the train while me and Kris took the bus. My bus came first so i left. Now i'm home blogging cause my hair is wet and i cant seem to sleep. Sorry Girls, cant upload photos for now. I'll do it soon and send them to you guys k? Thanks for giving me such a MEMORABLE birthday! Sorry i was retarded and crazy today. Just really HIGH cause i was really damn HAPPY la. :D Takecare girls. I LOVE YOU ALL~

Za, dont sad you cant spend my birthday with me. Dont sad. :D ily

Boring day.

2009-02-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

Well, today was fun in school. Besides one thing. Fuglys you should know. Anyway, i'm bored. Talking to za online now. sleeping soon i think. Wont be in school tomorrow. Going to RP for SYF rehearsal thingy. Shall try to sleep early tonight. BYE!