THYERIKA

Monday, June 14, 2010

Don't feel like you're around. @ 12:11 AM

Well, this few days I feel lost. Like I'm out of place? I don't know what's going on inside of me. Its like I've lost touch of my inner self. Plus all we say to each other now is just "what you doing?". Maybe I'm just thinking too much? But I feel freaking lost without you. I need to see you. ): I feel like I'm bothering, I feel like I'm intruding, distracting, just like I annoy you. ): Sorry if that's how I am. But I know I can't live without you. ): Sorry. I think I'm just thinking too much.

Labels: I think too much.

Don't feel like you're around. @ 12:10 AM

Labels: Ithinktoomuch.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Just you in my tiny heart. @ 6:39 PM

Hey world,

Tomorrow is the start of term test week. Well, I haven't finished writing my notes for my first paper. So I guess I'm not prepared at all. I just hope my GPA doesn't go down. If it does, I'll learn from my lesson and start studying. ): I really hate to study. Think I need to upgrade my brain's RAM so that I can memorize more things. Anyway, I feel emo. HAHA! Don't know why.

I'm into this song: Everybody in Love by JLS. Somehow this chorus captured me. Don't know in what way, but it just did.

Every minutes like an hour
Every hours like a day
Every day lasts forever
But what else am i gonna do
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep
what else could it be missing you so deep
long as I’m where you’re going to
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up for you

Don't know why, but there's just no mood in me to study. I lost my perfect student study drive again. All I want is just to study hard, but I can't. Sigh. Should I just give up? There's no motivation for me to study, no goal that I want to achieve. Nobody for me to study for, I find someone I study for. But somehow, I can't find that someone. Even HER.. Why can't I study? ROAR!

Labels: I just want a good GPA; I just want you to tell me I can do it; I just want you to be proud of me; I need your encouragement.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

What's wrong with me? @ 12:03 AM

I don't understand what's going with me. I feel frustrated easily, I scold vulgarities in like every sentence. ): Even to you... I'm sorry I'm rude, but I just can't seem to control my emotions. Sigh, these few days I don't feel secured at all. Like sometimes how you talk to me, just makes me afraid even more. I lose my temper easily. I just want to spend more time with you, talk to you more. But its like you don't have time to talk to me. Sigh, I just want you forever. Its not too much right? I need to control. ):

Labels: All I need is you girl.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I wish I could serenade to you in a high-class restaurant in front of everyone. O: @ 9:49 PM

Hello world. (:

I guess school is fine now. Though there's more responsibilities as each day passes, more roles to take on. But I can manage, I guess. Quizzes are coming up, projects are piling up. Hope my perfect student drive stays with me all the way! I want to be a really good student. But I don't want to seem like some anti-social person just mugging like crazy. I just want to do well, with a good GPA, get into a good restaurant to work. Just as simple as that. :D

Food for thought today: Is it good to take the initiative? Or is that a bad thing? Will people think that I want to gain attention? Will people think that I'm stuck-up cause I always want to be leader? Actually, I don't want to take up these responsibilities. There's just an instinct in my that makes me take the initiative to do things for people. The initiative to want to lead. The initiative to work the team. But what if people think this instinct of mine as a threat, or that I'm seeking attention? Or that I want to have power? I'm starting to worry. ): I have 3 leadership roles now. Class rep, and project leaders for 2 project. What are people thinking? Do they think my initiative of good or bad? I wonder...

Anyway, FYI, no matter what you think of me. I will continue to be that way. Because I live MY life as I want to. And not how you want me to live.

Labels: Baby; i can't wait to serenade to you.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Love? @ 8:40 PM

Nothing much has been going on lately. Just a little stressed up about school. There's so many things to do. Can I just not do any? Sigh. Got 3 quizzes on Monday. Next week total 4. Zzz. Why so rush? Everything in one week. Even the toughest will crumble. Sigh, I guess I'm just not in the mood. Not in the mood for anything actually. Stop here and go on to some food for the soul.

Love sweeps you off your feet when you see that one person you love.

And yet, love squeezes and crumbles your heart when you're missing that one.

Love is contradicting.

But, love is definitely blind.

Because of love, I'll do anything.

Even though I might end up hurting.

Because of you, I finally understood love.

Yet, because of you, I'm doubting my understanding of love.

Somehow, love just grabs everything away from me.

And love is made up of ALL my emotions.

I guess thats what love really is.

An emotion.

To me, love is you.

You make my meaning of love.

You showed me how to love with my life and my soul.

Love can be a hassle to some.

But to me, love is bliss.

Bliss because I have you to love.

Bliss because you love me.

Love is a powerful emotion.

Your love is what's making my heart beat.

I love you.

Today, tomorrow and forever.

Labels: Thanks for that email; It made me feel better.